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Posted on: Thursday, April 29, 2010
Posted at: 4/29/2010 06:38:00 PM
Posted at: 4/29/2010 06:38:00 PM
Being w Siti has indirectly taught me that being weak is alright. That feelings shouldn't be shunned and keeping a strong poise all the time can be broken sometimes. Rather, feelings should be heard to lessen it. ♥
People living under one roof, all around me stresses that he's gone. He's gone forever. Not coming back. Get over it. No point holding on, haunted by the past. It won't make a difference. That I need to let go and change.
I feel like shouting in their faces, it's not a new life Im starting. I need bits and pieces of the past too.
Ive never bore ppl talking about it in fact my lips are often sealed. & when I open up, this is all I hear.
&, it's not I want to hear at all. Nothing to comfort me. Trying to imgaine it all but clearly failed. They say it like it's so simple yet it breaks my heart.
It's not easy, it's the person I spent almost my whole life with. The one who depends on only me, when everyone turns their backs to him, even the one whom he had vowed his love to. The one whom I go to for comfort every now and then, used to.
One simple thing could cause a commotion. As simple as putting up a certain framed photograph. It's my territory yet I don't have the right to. She wants to put it in our house in Johor which I dont visit for a long time. Which is like saying straight to my face 'chuck it, it's not suitable for display.' I know the reasons, but sometimes, couldnt you let me win the situation when it comes to this, for once ?
Now, Im in the wrong again, aren't I ?
I dont know what to do and think or even what to feel.
It's probably a test I dont wna go through.
i need to depend, but i dont want to depend.
This is insane. I am insane. Maybe Ive issues, but I dont think so.