TAG, before you leave. It won't hurt.
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& let me just say that
You may know me better by readin' my blog, but that does not mean you know me best still.

Being w Siti has indirectly taught me that being weak is alright. That feelings shouldn't be shunned and keeping a strong poise all the time can be broken sometimes. Rather, feelings should be heard to lessen it. ♥

People living under one roof, all around me stresses that he's gone. He's gone forever. Not coming back. Get over it. No point holding on, haunted by the past. It won't make a difference. That I need to let go and change.

I feel like shouting in their faces, it's not a new life Im starting. I need bits and pieces of the past too.

Ive never bore ppl talking about it in fact my lips are often sealed. & when I open up, this is all I hear.

&, it's not I want to hear at all. Nothing to comfort me. Trying to imgaine it all but clearly failed. They say it like it's so simple yet it breaks my heart.

It's not easy, it's the person I spent almost my whole life with. The one who depends on only me, when everyone turns their backs to him, even the one whom he had vowed his love to. The one whom I go to for comfort every now and then, used to.

One simple thing could cause a commotion. As simple as putting up a certain framed photograph. It's my territory yet I don't have the right to. She wants to put it in our house in Johor which I dont visit for a long time. Which is like saying straight to my face 'chuck it, it's not suitable for display.' I know the reasons, but sometimes, couldnt you let me win the situation when it comes to this, for once ?

Now, Im in the wrong again, aren't I ?

I dont know what to do and think or even what to feel.

It's probably a test I dont wna go through.

i need to depend, but i dont want to depend.

This is insane. I am insane. Maybe Ive issues, but I dont think so.

'supppp ?

Welllll, i jogged at prp w Huda & Debby (insert zillion hearts)The weather is so so so hot I tell you. There was hardly shade. Ironically, 'cause of this, ppl stay inside & produce more harmful gases that affects the ozone. Anw, Debby didnt even jog, she waited for us. Pemls betol. Jogged for only like 14 mins. Heh. But at least its better than nothingg. Blahhh, huda came to my crib again to study and I did Geog ONLY. Plus, dont think Ive time to study tmrw. Keep screwing things up. So, get to meet them aft a long long time. I wna go Bugis library one day, can study too which is currently my priority other than art. Pfft. So, I love my due ekor very the much k. ♥

I accidentally bit into the inside of my upper lip that there's two tooth marks. It hurtsxz when I eat. D:

art.is.really.getting.on.my.nerves. i just cant draw. takes hours.
so many draw just for one design. awesome much.

Updating...
a boring one. 'Cause its all schoolschoolschool. And I didnt even go out.

Homec exam is over. I think we did well. Our tart was screwed and we're left w so little time. But, we managed to turn it into a creative simple dish which was surprisingly delicious. Omg, amanda, you & i - we just rock. (x will post th picture.

It makes me feel dizzy looking at my 4 half pages long malay compo esp when it is not beautifully written at the end end part, as always. Urgh. My handwriting is not big, somemore and I just cant write ringkas-ly for malay comp. Idk why. Freaking me outtt. :/

Ah, trainings out. If only its for forever. So, Im so gg to use this time to study altho i mis-used it this wkends. Heh. But, I hope I can go out too. Well, at least a day or two and not too far away. Hey, I need to breathe man. But I really dont wna fail anymore. I know I can do it. Altho now, I may be the worse in 2B, but I hope that's gna change. I wont let anything jeopardise the importance of school, starting from now even if Im too busy w other stuff. Have to remind myself that's the main point. I wont let sth tht I fail in to affect studies which I can excel in. Mind over matter.

Adding on, netball's over for graduating seniors. You all played well, maybe you deserved a better placing but everyone's played their best, and it went that way. You all are still winners to us. Future trainings would be different. I want to thanks those seniors who supported me so much, encouraging and trying to make me believe in myself. I really app them. So, all the best for Os. (:

&, RIP Achik Spin. It was tragic. ); To think it happened on the 17th.

When people are in love, they always become obsessed.

I miss horse riding. ):

I dont wna be the broken chain that stops all. I wna break free.

"They are too good compared to me.""It's not that they look down on me. In fact, everyone encourage me, support me but it's me, who doesn't want to have faith in myself." "I'll try not to be sucha pessimist. Ill repeat the cycle over & over again till I succeed."

I actually really said that. So, wth stop being such a scaredy cat & just do your best.

NAPFA tmrw. Broad jump gna screw all. -.-

This came about when I started using a fan after 247652598437 years and realised what a big difference it is.



First time in my whole life I got a few underlines when I used to have none at all. First time = so bad. FML.

Fb - I joined this: The first time I saw you I thought you were weird now you're my bestfriend. Hahahahhaa. This award goes to Siti Zulaikha. :o ♥


Homec yesterday was as usual, a blast w baobei Amanda. ^^ made pizza + peach crumble. Then, Cikgu Alia blanje Canadian Pizza lagy. ;D


Byebye home♥♥♥ ; hello house.
I learnt in life, you've to let go of so many things that are close to your heart. They're just meant to be that way for everything changes, so youve to follow suit. It was where I shared so much memories of you yet I cant keep it.
How many more things of you do I have to chuck ? Its not that I want to. I had to. I miss you. I miss you so much. Im sorry.


This all pictures Ive of Pulau Ubin. I dont have deb + me pictures or other ppl's solo pictures. + i dont think deb will upload. So yeah. K, enjoy. (: