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Let's cut this short.
I'm cool.
Im not an optimist neither am I a pessimist but a realist.
DebbyRS, ☮♥(:
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Ta-boo !
Posted on: Wednesday, March 31, 2010
Posted at: 3/31/2010 09:35:00 PM
Posted at: 3/31/2010 09:35:00 PM
>:(
Debbydebbydebby, don't wna upload pictures 'cause she doesnt look good in it. ):
I want so badly, Idk why. I lend hp + stick tau. Major stuff. :o
Upload when I have th mood k.
Shan't spoil my mood cause ..
Me & dayah aka awesome pair won Malay Taboo Competition
vs 20+ schs. Yayyayyay ! Champ tauu. Tk hidung tinggi kaaay. We were like preparing ourselves to score 0 for each round & face embarrassment and at least get 4th when we realised we qualified. But uh, aiya, this is the result of humble ppl like me. *grins bigbig* but yeah Im so happy I contributed my bag's breadth trophy size. For semis & finals, we had to do in front of everybody using microphone. Surprisingly I managed to forget about them when it starts. Got this part dayah say sth like "berenangberenang...." then i say kolam renang. Everybody laughed. -.- I was like wht did I just said ? :o It was spposed to be peribahasa uh, so yeah paisey then i was like tktautktau skip skip dorang ketawe lagy. Tsk. Got so many mencuitkan hati. Haha. Lazy to type. I think uh we win 'cause got th TJC dk what his name good luck charm. IT WAS FUN. (:
Bits & pieces.
Posted on: Monday, March 29, 2010
Posted at: 3/29/2010 09:32:00 PM
Posted at: 3/29/2010 09:32:00 PM
Promise of a lifetime which can be broken so easily when the heart has a desire for another or the love is too weak to overcome the odds they had foreseen & thus fail to fulfil the commitment they once made w sincerity. Deb haven't upload pictures yet explains why I aint posting them. Maybe in a day or two.
Im sorry for being late, Siti.
I dont even know when to serve detention. Im so busy. Even Mr Wong cannot fix a date for my remedial. Only 3 of us. I think Im the only one who fail. Stupid careless mistake. Probs Ive Sci remedial too. I need time. But even if there is more time, it'll still be occupied, isn't it?
Anw, malay taboo competition tmrw th tmrw w Dayah. I hope it goes well. I hope I won't panick. I hope we at least score 3 points to spare the sch from embarrassment & myself. Wish me luck. At least I feel useful here.
Performance by this Indian sch during assembly. & th sch was like cheering when they literally shake everywhere during the dance.
Sculpture walk damn boring.
&, HAHAHA. Siti almost fall forward to the new bus side elderly seating 'cause she didnt hold anything and I was tugging at her. The guy in front mate terbeliak when he realised what was happening & get ready his hands to catch her. Hahahahahahhaahahahahahahahha.
No one feels another's grief, no one understands another's joy. People imagine they can reach one another. In reality they only pass each other by. -Franz Schubert
They keep saying they know how it feels, but they dont for they only try to imagine, unless they went through it themselves. 'Cause I've experienced myself, so Ive realised. Stop reaching out for the sake of it, when you know you have no clue.
Once in a while, I need your fatherly hug.
Debby & family.
Posted on: Sunday, March 28, 2010
Posted at: 3/28/2010 10:46:00 PM
Posted at: 3/28/2010 10:46:00 PM
Tryin' to post a short one. (:
So, I did an awesome job doing ppt for presentation w picts like above (homec) which is like coolcoolcool, & in the end, I'm so high tech that we can't present it 'cause th lappy's outdated. -___________- Wasted time + effort burning midnight oil, and Amanda was so enthu to present. Haha, nvm it's okay, I'm coool. 8D
Yesterday's training was not tiring. Same as Friday. Played matched against some schs to train umpires. Yeah, I freaked out at th starting already on friday. I mean like Ive didn't play well, I personally feel I never have, somemore it was w my own B'Div senior. Im so so so so disappointedstressedfreakedoutfrustrated yknow. Im sucha crybaby in netball. ):
Okay, whtever. Aft trng, head to Loyang pt w Roze, Adelia & Amira. Eat eat talk talk then wait for Siti who was sesat because she is too slenge blur. Hahah. And we ended up sitting at Macd for 3half hours. Wow. :o
Today went to PU w Debby & family. yayyayyayyayyayyay. Haha. I woke up at 6.10, that means I didnt have my weekend beauty sleep. Aw. Then, Deb all wake up late so yeah. Smangat tau. Breakfast at Changi. Ferry, deb enthu btl. Cycled blahblah. Monkey. Itchy. Slopes. Fun. Kecoh. But sleepy.
Then, bathed at hme, and initially wanted to do hw at Deb's hse. But I napped for 3h. My god. Haha, not enough sleep okay ! But th others sleep too 'cause tired but to me the cycling wasn't tiring. Ate peach cocktail. Then bye. Gna fnish Sci hw. So bye here.
:B
wait, this ain't a short post.
Oh wait, I'll post some photos in next post k. (:
I LOVE LOVE LOVE DEBBY & FAMILY.
tysm.
Family portrait ripped of the wall.
Posted on: Thursday, March 25, 2010
Posted at: 3/25/2010 09:58:00 PM
Posted at: 3/25/2010 09:58:00 PM
Photography takes an instant out of time, altering life by holding it still. - Dorothea Lange
Photography, as we all know, is not real at all. It is an illusion of reality with which we create our own private world. - Arnold Newman
The fundamental belief in the authenticity of photographs explains why photographs of people no longer living and of vanished architecture are so melancholy. - Beaumont Newhall
I deduce that photographs are simply beautiful illusions that you wish to portray or simply showcasing someone's genuine happiness / attitude which has since faded. It's undeniable that things do change. But it's the best thing to hold on to if the details in it no longer exist.
Today
Posted on: Monday, March 22, 2010
Posted at: 3/22/2010 09:14:00 PM
Posted at: 3/22/2010 09:14:00 PM
I SURVIVED SCHOOL + TRAINING W BARELY 2H OF SLEEP.
Awesome. Hehe.
K, I'm dead beat now.
I failed Maths & Sci, worst so far in my life. I lost so so many marks for Maths which I can do. I wonder wth am I thinking tht time ? -.-
Idk what's got into me this year. I'm too, caught up. I just can't focusxz.
I srsly have no idea why I'm in 2B when my '09's position's a li'l above 100.
So, what's more is there for me to screw ?
My mum is downright annoying. I'm grown up now, not a toddler. Uh, fatigue makes me moodier. :o
Bye ah.
We all have our scars
Posted on: Saturday, March 20, 2010
Posted at: 3/20/2010 03:10:00 PM
Posted at: 3/20/2010 03:10:00 PM
You said don't act like a child,
but what if it's a father I need?
Holiday's so not happening.
Didn't go for both hockey training / match.
Gna start hw, & try fnish up as much as I can by today.
Some done, halfway, either 'cause Idk how to do or Im just plain lazy.
Some done, halfway, either 'cause Idk how to do or Im just plain lazy.
Didn't meet target set.
To Debby♥'s crib later on.
I take back my words, & try to do as well, in my best as I can.
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Ohyeah, I laughed out loud at you. 'cause you're sucha big fool to think it is sth true to you when you're actually being toyed with. Ey, it's all way too dramatic, can't you just see that. You're much too blinded, naive. Wake up from your 'lovable' fantasy man & stop overreacting. Urgh. Can't stand such losers. You cut yourself out to be pitiful when in fact, you're pathetic.Other situations deserve such grieving better. I mean, many have gone thru a real, much more worse situation. You're just desperate & insecure & doesn't know how to app ppl ard you & even yourself. Face it. Yours is just a puppy love, w someone whom you barely knew nvm held hands before. Grow up, kid.
Dont wrry, it's none of my close friends, 'cause I'd have told you straight in th face, as you alrdy know me. (:
Best Beauty
Posted on: Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Posted at: 3/17/2010 09:03:00 PM
Posted at: 3/17/2010 09:03:00 PM
There's nothing as beautiful as the happiness of a child.
Couldn't agree more.
I didn't go for hockey friendly match today for snrs. );
So so sad. But, whattodo ? I've my priorities, if that's what you consider it.
So so sad. But, whattodo ? I've my priorities, if that's what you consider it.
Today's the 17th.
It did, as I half expected it to be, willing th other half of fantasy to be true. False hopes, over & over & over & overrrr again.
Im sick of being disappointed every time. Just tell me straight tht Im useless. But don't worry, I'll still play your game as best as I can, like a fool. It's okay ; it's life. It pays.
Today
Posted on: Monday, March 15, 2010
Posted at: 3/15/2010 10:34:00 PM
Posted at: 3/15/2010 10:34:00 PM
Today's Special:Cheesy Turkey Omelette, my style.
yumm.
I got-a gut feeling I'll post almost everyday for this March holiday. That far, no more full-page emo thoughts. Ewww. Haha. :B
Okay sooo, today, clean-ed up store room. Tons of junkystuffs in there, urgh. Discovered many childhood toys. :o So old, I know. Karang guni mah. Haha.
Im so so stressed by my comp / ipod / usb or wherever / whatever the fault lies. I can't sync my songs (!) Damndamndamndamndamn. I needa hear nicenice songs during my bus ride + to block out Siti's nonsense. Hah, kidding for latter part. Okay whatever, but I just hope it works soon, magically. I need you, song. D:
You nice people, TAG my blog uh kay ? Even if Idk you. At least it gives me and idea who are my stalkers. But I bet this'll be ignored. 
&, truth is, I take every one of them seriously, tryin' to decipher each meaning beyond it. 'Cause it means everything to me. It's the only 'new' thing I can hold on to now. It's tough.
Out
Posted on: Sunday, March 14, 2010
Posted at: 3/14/2010 11:08:00 PM
Posted at: 3/14/2010 11:08:00 PM
V th cuttttte, right ? 12+ - 8
Alice in Wonderland @ e!hub -> Burger King -> Ikea & Courts to check out bedsheets, blinds, paintings (bought one set of bedsheet -> TBB -> cabbed home.
TURKEY CARBONARA w additional PARMESAN CHEESE! (Y)
In order to accept change and the suffering it brings, we need to find meaning in it.
-Mary Norton Gordon
-Mary Norton Gordon
So perhaps I really have to start searching for th meaning & emphasising on it to make everything seems less unreasonable.
I ain't your robot.
Posted on: Saturday, March 13, 2010
Posted at: 3/13/2010 03:16:00 PM
Posted at: 3/13/2010 03:16:00 PM
♥
AdamLambert's in Singaporrrrrrrre. I wonder where he is exactly now. :l
Ahh, so many famous artistes come here, but I didnt even get to attend any of th performances. If not, it'd be so much fun ! Well, ): Haha.
Teachers expect one thing, coaches expect the other & parent/s expects another. Hello people, I'm a human, not a robot, in case you don't know.
I'm already sucha failure in that area and it never fails to fill me w chagrin. Yet, I sacrifice so v much for it, altho' knowing it brings nothing significant at th end of each day, neglecting even impt factors of my life. Till it affects other things & results me in failing those other things when I actually know I can excel in them. It sucks, right ? This whole thing makes me like a total failure & further diminished my esteem. Ignore that, but still, I don't want to pull the others down along w me 'cause it affects them. I'm fed up, vv much indeed. I don't want to break down, 'cause it'll affect my outer poise. However, sometimes you can't force what to feel, when you are actually feeling the opposite.
I never like to post this way (above). I don't like being so emotional, it makes ppl think of me like Idk, a certain way. But I just feel like opening up, to feel better in a way.
I need Debby♥, to cheer me up in her own ways w/o me pouring out to her. She's just so much fun, who understands me best tho' she not much good at being responsive emotionally. Actually, she's kind of waiting for me to come but I still haven't get my butt outta here. Heh.
My life's been so 'emo' now, isn't it ?
It all boils down to one single thing.
However, I don't know why this stubborn part of me never wants to consider giving up altho' Im telling you now, I'm very much affected negatively.
It's like my mind wants to, but my heart doesn't want to for I always never leave halfway thru a journey even if it's sth I loathe.
I'm burnt out.
CT + Nball season repost
Posted on: Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Posted at: 3/10/2010 07:05:00 PM
Posted at: 3/10/2010 07:05:00 PM
You were so alive when I dreamt of you. Put me in a trance once more.
I'm expecting less-good results for CT. Just crossing my fingers that Im not gna fail. 
DMN's C'Div & B'Div Netball are E-Zone Champs~!
Congrats ppl, Im so proud of you all. All th best for nationals~
ps: I aint playing for competition ; it's them.
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I somewhat lost my pride.
Oh, it has nothing to do w ego.
I may be a big disappointment, & sometimes I don't wna carry on & make it any worse 'cause I just ain't confident of myself. However afraid may be, deep inside, it's different. Something 'daring' that I don't want to admit due to fear. It keeps shouting -
Just don't give up on me.
Dude, I can't help it. I'm lost. I can't even trust my own abilities.
Lovely humans.
Posted on: Thursday, March 4, 2010
Posted at: 3/04/2010 11:03:00 PM
Posted at: 3/04/2010 11:03:00 PM
Look around you. You'll notice grasses fading in colour. Look beyond it then ; it's a sign. I guess you should start looking into it.
By moi. Hah.
040310. Check.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SITI~
Thanks for hearing my craps but it helps, alot. You may not be the only bestf but you're the only one whom I really pour out my woes to. Each of you is diff. I thank you. Lastly, jgn obsess sgt tauuuu. :D ♥
HAPPY BIRTHDAY RYAN SYAFFIQ!
Thanks for attending my celebration. Haha. &, thanks for being such a good friend + Im grateful that your family treats me well. (: ♥
Okay so, met Deb today aft training. Im so glad I did. Miss her so v much yknow ! Thanks Syahirah for accompanying too. Haha. Omg, & thankyou Debbobey for the purple top aye. I have so many purply stuff now, when I actually love blue. But it seems that blue aint popular. &, my room's gna be painted purple. So yeah. Anywaaaay, back to topic, I love it~ I LOVE YOU LA K. Im so glad I know youuu. Random, I know. ^-^ ♥
Aft all th kecohness, celebrated Syaffiq's birthday at his hse w his family only. It was a surprise one, we woke him up from his sleep. Nth else to type. So many thankyous huh ? Haha, k enough already.
COMMON TEST IS NEXT WK. &, I FIGURE IMMA SCREW IT.
Im gna fnish hw (alot) by tmrw, I hope. & will only start revising on Sunday.
Ive only been just passing tests / fail. I cant even focus in sch, keep feeling sleepy. Im now struggling w hws which include research-es, presentations + gp works, nvm find th time to revise / catch up. I need time. Free time. Not for anything but for studies. Im now literally already bonkers.