TAG, before you leave. It won't hurt.
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& let me just say that
You may know me better by readin' my blog, but that does not mean you know me best still.

Let's cut this short.
I'm cool.
Im not an optimist neither am I a pessimist but a realist.
DebbyRS, ☮♥(:
Four words for you:
My Blog's So Me.

I know, you want to have fun, aft being 'cooped up' for so long but don't you at least spare a thought ?

Attended floorball. Was okay, fun ? Was late again :D

Im so going to use this weekend to catch up, catch up & catch up on studies. I couldnt afford to delay any longer. Now, after this, more likely I will not post for a long time.

Thanks, Fazril. I appreciate. Alot.
Oh & tht reminds me, I can call, but not sms. However, I can receive messages. Bear in mind.

I feel like poking your eyes. It annoys and disgusts me to see you. Really.

Happy waiting forme to 'come back'[;

&, tag please ?

Im typing all plain cause there's sth wrong w blogger / my computer. Damn MEL. Making me so stress.
Damn you for not doing your ___ job.

Aint active in FS/FB/MSN etc. Maybe here too. Maybe. Th tagboard is dead anyway.
So wait long long to chat w me, for my comment replies okay.

'I can't believe the love I see'
Debby.Munirah.Sabiha.Tesya.Fazril.Huda.Iskandar.Azwan.Syazana.Siti.Sabrina.Syaffana.Anisha.Clara.Nasyitah.Ee Shan.Fathin.Aisyah.Johan.Dijah.Maryam
Specials. Je'taime.
& lots more.

I'm pissed off today at myself, at them.

Floorball's tomorrow.

Syazana Hidayah Siti - Somehow I felt like going to KFC again. And then I'll be crowned for th etiquette thing again. :D

Lastly, get well soon, Debby~ Told you to keep away from him. Seeeee. Imysm. I want to go out with yououou.

Every single day, it haunts me.
I'm not ready yet.
You dont know how bad it hurts, with being so strong and fighting those emotions. Th innocent li'l girl said, "But I didn't say goodbye to him."
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Youre like a little girl who couldnt sleep without your precious teddy bear.

Im afraid to open th laptop for Im not ready for th beautiful but painful memories hidden it it. Yet.


It's been 7 days

Im not supposed to be posting but heck.

I cant seem to keep up. Time's running so fast, leaving so little time for me to get things done.
I still haven't done few maths ex. There's still Geog mind map on 2 chapt which I havent even read. Th damn MEL script which is due today, and they didnt do it - srsly, no offence but yea. My stamina's way bad too. And it goes on.

Netball's tmrw, mum won't let me go. But, I dont know.

Im so tired these days, I doze off w/o knowing it and ended up sleeping for about 2 h or so. I couldnt hear my countless alarms in th morning, someone had to wake me up. Wht's wrong ?

Oh, whtever. Yesterday's bus ride was, erm, enjoyable ? Idk how to describe.

Again, Im grateful to those who care. But all I do is say thanks. Sincere ones tho'. So, if ya need help, know I'll be there. Love you all.
I feel bad for not telling some of you earlier, it all happened so fast. Im sorry and I really am.

I dont like this. I need strength.

Takecare. I won't end off saying goodbye anymore.
I couldnt help but laugh in sch yesterday. Friends liven everything up. Th plasticine thingy was good.

Im extremely super duper sorry, Siti, Sixu & Anisha ! I didn't present w you all since I didnt attend sch. SORRY.

Ive never been so weak, and afraid of things I used to consider minor. Wht happened ?

Thanks for th concern people. It's nice to know you're there. Every single word means a great deal to me. Mostly to Deb, maybe cause she's my bestf. She went through everything w me, always lifting up my mood.

I want to be a better person - better muslim, better student, better friend, better daughter. I will not disappoint you & will strive till th last second of my life. I want to make you proud, not useless. I'll never delay things or take things for granted anymore.

People, take care of your health. If you're sick, never suffer alone. It'll benefit alot if you don't smoke. Treasure people you love & who loves you and you'll never regret. Never be afraid to say th three words to them.

Wht happened to th 24/7 strong front ? Wht happened to your genuine cheerful expression? Why are you so weak now ?

Yesterday's mum's birthday. Quickly rushed to buy present. Didnt wna anymore regrets. She was glad to receive th surprise gift.

One day, and many things can happen. In a blink, anything can change. Even if you delay once, it can be too late. Anything at all.

Why do we have th habit of keeping to ourselves ? If not, both parties would not be so hurt, suffering alone. You wouldn't be so lonely. It's hard for you. Im sorry. Th most thing I regretted is not having enough time for you. It's been months since we met except today. You look different. Didn't think on th next meeting, I'd see you in this condition.

Th scratch on my knee from a fall during netball hurts. My eyes hurt for crying too much. I've never cried so much. But nth beats th wound in my heart. Scratches & all recover, but th wound ? It can never ever be fully recovered. I know.

Things don't matter. You shouldn't be angry for not getting me tht thing. Your love is all tht matters, yknow ? Really.

Yes, Im never open about my feelings. Ppl see me a happy face every single day. Perhaps, cause of tht, you may misinterpret. But I love you alot, yknow. I love you w every single bit of my heart. And, I extremely miss you. It's just tht, I cant bring myself to say it. You should know. I slipped stuff about you in blogs, sch compos etc but, you don't know tht.

Th last time we hugged, kissed, th last second I heard your voice, your breath were more than a month. And tht's it ? Where's your word of warning ?

Why was I so dumb ? They could be a warning, for all I know. Those signs, my instincts. I simply ignored them. Rmmbr once I posted 'I left th two of them dying, so, tell me, wht does it signify ?' I think it's been answered, haven't it.

It's nice to know you were there when I needed comfort th most. Thanks to you all. Tht includes Anisha, for 'immediate' concern aft wht happened at sch & th shopkeeper whom Idk.

If only.. if only.. if only..
Thts wht we humans are capable of saying.

I will be strong.
I will never ever forget you. I promise. I love you.

It's fated & Ive to accept it no matter wht.

Hii netizens.

School's fun.

I've not been slacking today. Instead, stayed back at school to do projects, for fun, or play bball. And when it all ends, Muni & Itah would be home by then. So yeah.

Played basketball w Siti yesterday. Was effing fun. Haha. Clara was there too.

Today, th new Art teacher taught us. I prefer Ms Liyanaaaaaaaaaaaa. Is it spelt tht way ?

Had th DSA trials too. There was one PV. Didn't even think any of them would DSA to DSS. Guess who ?

Ifah.

So yeah, first time really 'talked' to her. Haha. She played well, srsly. She's fast too.

I dont wish to elaborate so this post may sound booooring. I want to sleep. I realise I sleep early these days like at 10+

^.^

CCAs will resume next wk.

I'm afraid it would resume soon. I'm afraid of having tht feeling of failure. Maybe I'm afraid to fail, even though I accept th very fact tht I suck at it.

School was awesome. And Idk why's tht. Maybe there was PE ? Perhaps.

It's th Good English Wk. We had to some up of a poem from th word ENGLISH. Ours came up like this :
E veryone knows that we have to speak good English
N o, never Singlish
G ood English is useful for
L ife revolves around it
I t's love, also the universal language
S o let's hear ourselves communicate properly
H onour it, cherish it, for it's beautiful.

LOL. So true. Okay, sarcastic.

So yea, had PE. Mr Wong was absent. So instead, we didn't tell Mr Sim tht we had to do self-study, hoping tht he would let us play. But, he made us take height & weight. Aft tht, free and easy. Played bball, wht else ? It was a pleasure.

Stayed back in school, did th Med Club thingy and hang around at th library w Siti and those Austin clique, Mark, Jee Yann were around. Jasmine helped abit for th honeymooners activities. Haha. She was funneh. Anw, borrowed two books.

I didn't return/ reply Munirah's texts & calls for my hp was w Sixu and connection was really baaaaaaaad. So didn't slack today.

To Siti, forget it. You'll realise it wouldnt matter much after some time. You have wonderful friends around you. [Like me] Hahhh, just kidding ! So yea.

Taking 81 to school tomorrow, maybe playing bball after school either in school or at our neighbourhood there. And, Mark just cant stop teasing about tht 'check' thing. Gahh ._.

We looked at each other, without saying anything. Th next time, we would be saying hi, like casual friends.

'I used to be love drunk, but now I'm hungover
Love you forever, forever is over'

End those secret relationships for I've regained my senses. And all those love at this young age. Hell yeah, I mean it. CMT was okay.
MT was okay too.
Recess is more than okay. But we actually forgot to take our bags. -.- So paisey. Then when we return to class, everyone's like burst out laughing saying sarcastic things like 'nice bag'. >.<
Eng was okay.
Sci was bullshit cause th teacher keep rushing and I dont understand a single thing, since she missed one period and no one bothered to call her up.
CME was okay.
And, detention's fun. Had w Yen Ping, Shabana, Mark, Sang Hyun and Cherie. Laughed alot. Didnt took as long as 45 mins. We need to do a 100 words 'essay' refelction and signing of w a declaration and signed at th bottom,promising to bring all art materials blah blah blah.
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I still can't get it right despite countless of practices.
They didn't voice it out, except tht, but obviously, I know.
Im exhaustd emotionally & physically. Yes, Im taking this srsly.
All I need is a rare early good night's sleep now where everything'll go blank.

I'm extremely disappointd in myself, but I won't give up..

It's flattering to be your twinster, yknow ?

&She had a nightmare where a small heroine beat her, th big gigantic heroine & won, you get it ?

People love my sports bag -.- Haha.


More about this later on.

School's alright today.
I dont like MEL fusion. I dont like acting. I dont even know how to act properly. Cause, I dont want to.
Art's kind of enjoyable. Went around school to take pictures of th buildings. Something super duper funny happened, but aint writing here. HAHAHA. -.-"
Th bad part is, Ive got detention cause of art. Dammit. I could actually get away w it. Gahh.
So, tomorrow, have to attend detention and do an essay. Wht has arts to do w essays ? Tsk. It's only 45 minutes anw. I'll then go hme w Siti, change bag, take netball gears and go back to school again for training w th new DSAs. Im scaared. Heh. Therefore, I can't attend tomorrow's party.

Had a 'birthday bash' for Nasyitah love. Not much. We played w flour, as you can see. It was effing fun ! Itah said it was th best birthday party she had ever had so far. I hope it stays (:
Partied w th normal ppl & Huda & Aishah joined us too, today. We made quite a mess but swept off some. There was this adult eyeing us. She didn't scold nor talk to us. I'd rather she scold us like other residents did last time than complain. I really hope she won't.

Oh yea, before tht, as I was walking toward th block, Muni, Deb, Itah ran. It turned out they were running away from some Siglapian boys. Th boys flirtd then they ran. It was so so so funny ! Haha. But Huda & I only walked and ignored them when we saw them but Deb & Itah continued running. LOL.

&lastly, tag tag tag tag tag before you leave, please ? D:




Today.

Went to Penin & Bugis w Azyan & Munirah love. It was a blast.
Bought yet another camera bag. Heh. And a yellow hockey ball.
Ate at Long John Silver's. Munirah dk how to cut th thing. -.- She looked like a helpless kid. :x.
& Azyan, I hope you will dress like tht when you go out w me in future. Hee (:
It was really fun but Im lazy to elaborate further. So yeah.

I apologise tht I cant attend th floorball Youth Day competition ; to Debby, tht I cant join you for hiking at Pulau Ubin. I figured it would be fun to attend them both. It's a pity to miss them. ):

Everything's a mystery, don't ya think so ?

I'm tired of seing people suffer because of it, so that's why - I don't want to be like them, yknow. Hi.

I'm posting now just so I'll update this blog.

Yesterday, played bball w Siti, Hui Qi, Mark, Louise(?), Vivian, Jeffrey & some guy. Was fun I guess ? But, I didnt know how to check then I go dribble th ball. ._. Everyone laughed their heads off. So bad. Haha.

I kept reading between your lines, and I think I sense some 'fakeness'

Today in MT was fun. Except those sarcamsms kind of thing, if yknow. Syazana & I joked alot. Many things happen uh. So funny.

Also, I was late to school. Took Huda's father taxi w her & her sister. Dropped me off last. But dont have detention like tht time. Only tht when I reached school, there was like no students except 3. Luckily I wasnt th only one.

I think Im posting craps but whatever.

I left th last one dying, w/o making any efforts. So, tell me, wht does it signify ?

Bye.

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